During the day I deal with children, and manage, to some extent, not to think about the past.
At night however it is different. I have trouble sleeping, and often have terrible nightmares where I seem to experience once again everything that has happened to me. Most of the times I wake up in the middle of the night, terrified, and can not go back to sleep again. I am mostly upset because of the children because I fear that sometimes I react too abruptly to little things, sometimes I will not let them go out, because I have a feeling that something terrible will happen again, occasionally I hear sounds which frighten me – I know they are not real, but I start to sweat nonetheless and need time to calm down.
Female (29) from Afghanistan